Hey Ben,
You have never listened to me before but I'm hoping you will now.
We have been through a lot together, we have been through everything together.
Without you I am a worthless muscle mass but together we can do amazing things.
I guess I just want you to know I'm glad we have each other.
PS This is your heart.
It's hard for me to put words to how I feel when I accomplish something meaningful, I'm not sure if it's because it feels so damn good or if it's because I rarely feel it....
I think the only thing stronger than that feeling is how I feel when I fail at something.
For the longest time I let feelings of inadequacy control my life in a negative manner.
And I guess all I really want to say is our failures only strengthen us and make us human.
So at the end of the day loosing is also really winning.
The only thing we have to fear is fear itself. The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.The only thing we have to fear is fear itself. The only thing we have to fear is fear itself. The only thing we have to fear is fear itself. The only thing we have to fear Is fear itself. The only thing we have to fear is fear itself. The only thing we have to fear is fear itself. The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.
I am still waiting for you to wright me back.
Even if it is just a letter of rejection.
If you think that not responding is protecting me you're wrong, because as long as you don't destroy my thoughts of "us" I will still torture my self every day by constantly playing the possibility of you loving me through my mind on repeat.
I love I love you I love you
Love,
BEN
It is thought provoking
how what you thought was coping
Is really choking you worse than the rope that stopped your hoping like a train dead in it's tracks.
It's just another cigarette
another chance to forget
forget everything that's ever happened every choice you have ever made
making you who you are today.
but you're still here
so I'm not complaining
just wondering if I made any difference
or if you made these changes all on your own...
I'm still waiting to hear back from you.
Love
Benjamin
I remember the good old days like they were yesterday's leftovers.
Every time I look at them they are one day older and one day further from being fresh.
When I was 4 I learned how to play hopscotch, and when I turned 6 I learned that I had been playing wrong for 2 years. I found this new acquired knowledge a little unsettling, if I had been having such a damn good time....
What could I be doing wrong?
I found my collection of Pokémon cards yesterday, who thinks they can beat me??
LOVE YOU
-Ben
